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From Mr Ex (ex instructor)
Its true I don't feel strong enough to face all these crazy guys by myself. But I dont feel being a coward towards myself : I did dare face my problems, and I dare discuss them with some of my premie friends (face to face), and my psychoanalyst. Im not the one who's going to prove that all this business is pure BS. My purpose is to show that its possible to say what many people know but only few dare to say.
The fact is that some extremely interesting details have been received recently. As the general picture gets more detailed, more people can relate to it and connect it to their own experiences. Just read some of the recent posts. What you think afterwards is your own private business. This is what information is made for : it makes you think. Try to think straight. Connecting the information you get with those you already have makes you intelligent and wise. I don't need to rely on anybody in that field.
Not that many people are connected to the Internet. I printed copies of some of the most interesting pages of ex-premie.org and posts. It has been very useful for some premies ...... now ex-premies! One of the suggestions Ill make to Jim and David is to have all this as files to download from the site : main pages of the web-site, etc. Print some copies for your friends and see what happens!
Many people involved in EV question the whole thing (like many of the premies posting here I imagine), but don't dare to make the final step for some reason. I understand that perfectly because it took me quite a while to do it too. I did disagree for years with most of the coordinators I have been working with. Same thing with instructors, many of the important decisions, etc. I also met lot of people who would agree with me, and disagree with Ms and EVs policy.
We kept our mouth shut, because it takes a lot to go one step further. Many responsibles, instructors and coordinators left. They think (and I completely agree with them) that they have lost enough time with this.
Im not shutting my mouth because I have a lot of friends still in the trap. I really love some of these guys, and what I'm doing is useful (at least for me) _ and already proved to be useful for some of them.
I'm not questioning God, Truth, the Tao, whatever. What I am questioning is what M. does in the name of whatever he feels and experiences. 90% of the people who came to Knowledge left. There must be a good reason for that. This has been the trend since the 70s and is still what happens. More than 17,000 people received K. in 1997 (14,000 in 96) according to what Ms instructors say these days.
About half of them are from India & Nepal, the rest in the West. 8,300 people registered to the coming Long Beach event : less than past year! Look at the figures you might have . WHERE ARE ALL THESE GUYS ? Elan Vitals finances are catastrophic. They made more loans than ever to cover expenses in 1997. They will NEVER recover. Ms plans for 1998 are absolutely crazy as usual. Premies are delighted!
I'm afraid for many of these poor guys who are going to suffer of their guilt feelings. I personally know quite a lot of them. Regarding the veracity (voracity) of what I say : just check what you think are the most doubtful information I gave with someone really involved in EVs organization and having been instructor/ initiator. Check his/her reactions! He/she will of course say that Im in my mind!
What they call mind does not exist. The devil does not exist : its just the manifestation of your fears. FEAR DOES EXIST. Why we have fears is a relevant question. Questioning this can take you very far. I dont think anything I mentioned can be denied. Hundreds of copies of the instructors manuals are owned by ex-instructors. Make friend with one of them and check. You might find some misspelling because of the scanning and word processing, thats all. There are some minor mistakes here and there in the information, but David is quite busy building the site, and they will be corrected later.
Im very glad of what is happening here. Im very glad that Maharaji is furious about all this : he got copies and complains, his children are on the Internet too like many children. This is really fun.
Some security guys are very likely extremely busy trying to find out what could be done about this mess. They will pay thousands of $ to lawyers, experts etc. This is not the end of their problems. A lot more is going to come. The more furious he will be, the more happy I'll be (I should talk about this with my psychoanalyst next time). Being furious is very healthy anyway, ask any professional psychotherapist/psychologist.
Im enjoying all this. Life is to be enjoyed : even premies agree. We might not speak about the same thing ..... There is no harm in thinking and questioning anything. It is the most sane attitude.
Take care of yourself.